tonight i think i am going to just sit and type. if anything poignant comes out then good. if not then fine. but for now typing is my form of therapy. as i continued my conversation with amy i realized why i am down today. i am lonely. it just hit me. last week i…

Adam At Last: what on my page made you want to email me?Amberedenk: funny- I was talking to my hubby (I’m old – btw) about your writing- I told him that I really hope you eventually write a bookAdam At Last: i hope to.Adam At Last: sometimes i’m afraid i’ll dry up too soonAmberedenk: life…

this is something i said while talking to a friend. i liked it and want to show you so you’ll like me. i mean it. i look at other peoples lifes. and see them with people. why is it that the girls closest to me, the ones i should be teaming up with, don’t want…

he does things alone in hopes that someone will come unexpectedly in to see him. he sits at the top of the stairs and counts his change. he sings to jesus christ superstar while dancing around his house. he rocks out to the music and plays air guitar standing in the mirror. he wants to…

last week was an emotion week for me. i don’t know why. i was watching a beatles special and i cried when john got shot (which was almost 20 yeas ago). but i went through all sorts of emotions in the latter part of the week. i think i was just exhausted. but now i’m…

nad. like a worn sailor singing sad songs of the sea without mention of it. sitting on stage in an untucked oxford blue shirt and a USS The Sullivans hat. to the side of the stage. acoustic in hand, metal buttons reflecting the spot light. the unfolded bill of the stiff like new hat shades…

if you go to citysearch.com and then to portland-resturants-mexican, you will find almost 140 different restaurants advertised on the sight. lots to choose from. some are two store chains. others, like the one called taco bell, have 42 different stores listed. i found this odd considering this was a place for people to go to…